Jude pauses the forward movement of the story to admit that she has omitted painful parts of growing up in Faerie. Jude explains that these memories show how fear became part of her and how Jude learned to hide that fear.

Jude recalls that when Jude was nine, one of Madoc’s guards attacked her near the stables. The guard bit off the tip of Jude’s left ring finger, shoved Jude into a post, and threatened to eat the rest of Jude if she told anyone, so Jude kept the assault secret.

Jude then remembers being eleven and hiding under a banquet table during a revel. A bored member of the Gentry found Jude, compelled Jude to drink faerie wine, and forced Jude to dance until the experience became frightening and sickening. Princess Elowyn eventually found Jude crying and vomiting, but simply returned Jude to Oriana without asking what had happened, and Jude and Oriana never told Madoc.

Jude’s third memory is from when Jude was fourteen and Oak was four. After Jude came from a bath without protective charms, Oak accidentally discovered he could glamour Jude and used that power to make Jude play, chase him, and slap herself. Tatterfell found Jude hours later and fetched Oriana; afterward, Jude wore rowan berries for protection while struggling not to hurt Oak in anger.

Jude concludes that these stories expose what Jude most hates about herself: her vulnerability as a mortal in Faerie. Even if Jude could somehow surpass the Folk, Jude believes she can never truly be one of them.