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Chapter 12
Overview
Alone after a night out, Allie struggles with arousal from Dean’s sexts and realizes her fantasies now center on him. She debates her discomfort with casual sex but decides to continue a secret fling. Allie texts Dean to set a time, and he playfully promises to bring rope, escalating their private stakes.
Summary
Returning to the dorm after midnight with Megan, Allie settles in but can’t sleep. Dean’s earlier sexts have her too worked up, and she tries to relieve herself, turning to her usual celebrity fantasy.
Mid-fantasy, Allie’s thoughts shift from Ryan Gosling to Dean. Remembering Dean’s confession about liking to be watched, she leans into a vivid exhibitionist scenario on a hockey rink and climaxes, noting it still doesn’t compare to sex with Dean.
Afterward, Allie rationalizes her conflicting desires. She acknowledges Dean is incredible in bed and that she wants him, but she’s uneasy about casual sex and uninterested in a relationship—especially with a known player.
Concluding that both she and Dean want no-strings sex, Allie decides to keep it secret to avoid her own discomfort about others knowing. She texts Dean a simple “Okay,” and they negotiate tomorrow night at 9 p.m. after his kids’ game.
When Dean asks what changed her mind, Allie jokes about living “the Life of Dean.” He confirms the plan—and ends with a provocative promise: “I’ll bring the rope,” signaling their escalating, risky chemistry.
Who Appears
- Allie HayesProtagonist; struggles with arousal, shifts fantasies to Dean, debates casual sex, decides on a secret fling, and schedules a hookup.
- Dean Di LaurentisAllie’s secret fling; source of sext-fueled arousal, recalls liking being watched, sets a 9 p.m. meetup, teases he’ll bring rope.
- MeganFriend who returns to campus with Allie; present at the start before Allie’s private decision.