Contents
Chapter 32
Overview
Dean wakes bruised and remorseful after missing Allie’s play and trashing the house. Seeking accountability, he faces a surprise team drug test, confesses recent MDMA use to Coach Jensen, and is removed from the team two days later. The consequences mark his rock bottom and force a reckoning.
Summary
Dean wakes with a black eye, severe dehydration, and a flood of memories: missing Allie’s opening night, hosting a drug-fueled party, and being punched by Garrett after teammates did coke in the kitchen. He is crushed by Allie’s breakup and haunted by Beau’s death, wavering between nausea, shame, and hysterical laughter.
Garrett confronts Dean but also offers an earnest hug, acknowledging the grief behind Dean’s spiral. Logan adds support, and Dean resolves to attend practice despite his shiner. Dean wants to beg Allie’s forgiveness but follows the team to the arena.
At the rink, Coach Jensen announces surprise drug testing. Dean panics, suspecting O’Shea pushed for it, knowing last night’s MDMA will show. He privately asks to speak with Coach Jensen, who presses him to be honest. Dean admits to MDMA use, consumed by shame.
Two days later, the consequences land: Dean is kicked off the team. The chapter closes with the weight of his losses—Allie, Beau, and now hockey—underscoring that his avoidance and substance use have cost him everything and must be confronted.
Who Appears
- Dean Di LaurentisProtagonist; wakes with a black eye, remorseful over missing Allie’s play; confesses MDMA use and is kicked off the team.
- Garrett GrahamRoommate who punched Dean after the party; confronts him, then offers support and discretion about the incident.
- Coach JensenHead coach overseeing surprise drug testing; elicits Dean’s confession and later removes him from the team.
- John Logan (Logan)Teammate who offers a brief, supportive hug and checks on Dean before practice.
- Coach O’SheaAssistant coach present at testing; suspected by Dean of instigating the surprise test.
- TuckerTeammate who makes breakfast and goes with the guys to the arena.