If He Had Been with Me, #2
If Only I Had Told Her
by Laura Nowlin
Contents
Autumn — Ten
Overview
Autumn attends a prenatal checkup, finally providing a urine sample for preeclampsia screening and confirming her anatomy scan in two weeks. The routine visit triggers spiraling thoughts about the baby’s health and inevitable mortality. With her mother’s quiet support, Autumn grapples with fear and commits to love as action despite uncertainty.
Summary
Autumn meets with her prenatal doctor, who reviews the chart, reminds her to provide a urine sample to screen for preeclampsia, and confirms the upcoming anatomy (organ) scan scheduled for two weeks out. Autumn, cold and anxious to dress, has no immediate questions.
In the restroom, Autumn recalls Dr. Singh’s idea that love is action and reframes the awkward effort to urinate as care for herself and the baby. She manages to provide the sample and briefly chats with a nurse, who reassures her about the scan.
At reception, Autumn learns her mother has handled the appointment logistics and copay. In the car, Autumn notices fluttering she cannot distinguish from digestion and fixates on the concept of an “organ scan,” imagining possible abnormalities and outcomes.
This thought spiral widens into the reality that all lives end, including her baby’s someday. When Autumn admits worry, her mother gently agrees it will probably be fine but, remembering Finn’s death and Angelina’s long-held belief he would outlive her, refuses false certainty. Together, they accept uncertainty and the risk that “lightning can strike twice,” while Autumn recommits to loving through action.
Who Appears
- AutumnPregnant protagonist; completes urine test, schedules anatomy scan, and confronts fears about the baby’s health and mortality.
- Autumn’s MomDrives Autumn, manages the copay and appointments, offers quiet support while acknowledging uncertainty.
- DoctorReviews Autumn’s chart, requests urine for preeclampsia screening, confirms the anatomy scan timeline.
- NurseCollects the urine sample and offers brief reassurance about the upcoming scan.