If He Had Been with Me, #2
If Only I Had Told Her
by Laura Nowlin
Contents
Finn — Seven
Overview
Finn takes Autumn for tacos and candy to celebrate her finishing her novel, using the drive to soothe her and extend their time together. He silently declares his love through music, deflects a leering gas station clerk, and resolves to delay confessing until winter. Their intimate conversation about bodies and the brain deepens their bond before returning home so Finn can read her manuscript.
Summary
Finn picks up Autumn for a celebratory drive after she finishes her novel. She is subdued and doubtful about publication, so Finn reassures her and coaxes out laughter with teasing and music chosen because it reminds him of her. He deliberately misses an exit to prolong their time together and opens the windows the way she likes.
At the taco drive-through, they banter about food, exercise, and laziness, and Autumn casually mentions future pregnancy, which startles Finn and underscores his possessive, protective feelings. He promises candy next, planning the night so she’ll let him read her manuscript afterward.
At a gas station, Finn sends Autumn to rest while he buys her favorite candies and sodas. He notices the older clerk looking for Autumn and pointedly says she is with him, then rushes out, determined not to return. Back in the car, they ride quietly as Finn loops the long way home, savoring the moment and imagining staying near to protect her in college.
Finn asks if Autumn wants to practice driving; she declines, exhausted and focused on eating. They talk about his med-school path, which leads to his reflection on the brain managing automatic and conscious tasks, and his awe at Autumn’s mind creating her novel. Autumn notes how the brain can still send illogical signals, and Finn agrees. He restarts the album, hoping she intuits his feelings, and heads home so he can read her book.
Who Appears
- FinnNarrator; comforts Autumn with a taco-and-candy run, signals love through music, confronts a leering clerk, and resolves to delay confessing.
- AutumnExhausted after finishing her novel; doubtful about publication, playful during the drive, hungry, and receptive to Finn’s support and conversation.
- Gas station clerkOlder cashier who leers at Autumn; prompts Finn’s protective response and decision to avoid returning.