If He Had Been with Me
by Laura Nowlin
Contents
Chapter 87
Overview
Autumn wakes in the hospital after her suicide attempt, fully aware and determined to try again. Routine questions from a nurse lead to one about her last period, freezing Autumn with the implication she might be pregnant. This possibility disrupts her resolve and introduces a profound new stake.
Summary
Autumn wakes in a hospital after her suicide attempt, instantly aware of where she is. She sits on the bed in a scratchy gown, notes the thin blanket, and studies the neat bandages on her wrists while a nurse checks her vitals and orientation.
Autumn answers mechanically, disliking the nurse’s voice, and focuses on the precise wrappings, wondering about the person who made them. Despite surviving, Autumn resolves to try again, convinced Finny would forgive her once she can explain.
As the nurse continues intake questions, she asks about Autumn’s last menstrual period. The question stops Autumn cold; she cannot remember when it was. Autumn finally looks at the nurse and admits she doesn’t know, signaling a dawning realization that complicates her intent.
Who Appears
- AutumnProtagonist; wakes in the hospital after a suicide attempt, intends to try again, then is shaken by a question about her last period.
- NursePerforms intake and vitals; her question about Autumn’s last menstrual cycle triggers a pivotal realization.